Dear Diary,

When your 28 days away from your 30th birthday you start to freak out a little that your old as hell and cling on to anything that makes you feel close to your youth. Truthfully, getting "old" is one of the reasons why I've started this blog. Life is moving so quickly and I really want need a way to remember as much as I can. That is seriously so much easier said than done. I sometimes forget home much work blogging can be - but when I read back through posts from when Jordynn was little, I remember why I'm stilll awake at 2am writing about my life's story. Cue the tears!

Today was another great day for me. I know it sounds silly but sometimes I need to slow down and remind myself that I am doing good things. I've been making a short list of tasks every day to try and hold myself more accountable. Slowly over the last week I've been completing more and more things I wanted to. I feel more accomplished now than I have at all this past year. It's been a very hard year for me, and I'm proud of myself for trying to change. I'm staying hopeful for more happy days.